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Name: Vanvan
School: Nanyang poly
Age:18
First Cry: 13th Aug 1986
Horoscope: Leo

Previous Posts



Thursday, January 27, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

got reprimanded from my superivisor this morning bcos of the attendence... he said i allowed people to sign for their friends, therefore the attendence sheet it no longer reliable... he also doubt the flexi leave schedule jun quan and i had done up.. what can we probably do when we are caught between students and teacher??? i can choose to report them to the supervisor as i know who they are and claim the credit of being responsible and impartial, but what will others think? i cant imagine how my life would become if all of them gang up and boycott me... however, if this were to carry on, how many more times would the teacher reprimand me before he starts marking me down? is it really worthwhile to sacrifice my own grades for all these people whom mean nothing to me?? i really dont know where i should go from here....


everlasting friendship at 11:19 AM
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Monday, January 24, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

supposingly a long weekend should be a great time to really recharge.. but i am more worn out than ever... went over to my aunt's hse to help to bake the new year's goodies... i was asked to bake the love letters in the traditional way... my legs really hurt after sitting down on a stool for more than 5 hrs... saturday need to come back to school frm 1215 to 1515.. met jo and teng at orchard as they plan to shop for some stuff.... sunday was at my grandma's hse helping her unshell 1kg of ginko nuts.... that takes about half a day.... all these jobs seemed so easy when it was done previously by my aunts and grandma... when i did it myself, i realise how tiring it was... however, as age is catching up with my grandma, i guess someone need to help her with all that...
as for today, i just finish my workshop on flash... never do anything else at the time being so quite free....


everlasting friendship at 1:47 PM
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

i am so trapped in the middle.. what should i go when i am put in between two blocks where i can move neither left or right?? as an administator, no doubt i have to be fair to everyone.. but what can i do when im facing classmates whom are commiting faults by signing for others IN FRONT OF ME? i can keep a close eye if that is done behind my back.. but what should i do if they simply think that i will do nothing even when i see it? is this some sort of a dare? that i wont tel on them? i remember jun quan talking about integrity yesterday.. i really wonder how many people have this quality in them.. am i being too hard on myself? should i give myself one more try, or just give up?? i just dont understand why i am who i am.. i can give anyone or simply everyone a second chance, but not myself.. i just think i don't deserve a second chance... am i wrong to think that way??


everlasting friendship at 9:38 AM
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Monday, January 17, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

first day in ELDC and im full of grumbles.. i dun like it here.. strange environment and strange faces... i really miss the times in cc2.. i still remember shi ying and selene talking across each other, valerie playing games with beautiful graphics, shu yue also surfing in funny websites, amirul sleeping away in class and Bryan and him sneaking out for breaks.. all these seem to be teh little things that had became part of my life over the 7 weeks.. im now here so alone in this tiny extention room where all i see is foreign faces and walls. i can no longer observe what others are doing.. i really want back the life i once had.. even i may not be very close to them, i am happy the way i were.. the third party in everyone's life, watching their days sharing their joy...

to friends in CC2, i really hope we can meet again in our 3rd stopover.. mayb by then i would not have much grumbles during the first few weeks... although the bonds between us were not strong, i really cherish the 7 weeks we spent together.. best wishes in your future and take care....

Cheers...


everlasting friendship at 1:53 PM
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Friday, January 14, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

it is the last few moments in my first stopover.. nothing more to do.. just looking around at the people around me... some are smiling as ever, some are busy doing the last touch up for their multi-media and websites, some are taking pictures among themselves, some are people like me whom have specifically no special or hard feelings on this last day...

as i grow older, bidding good bye to the old life seems to have little impact on me.. does that make me a person without feelings? 30 more mins and all of us here are going our serparate ways... some of our paths will cross again in the future, others are 2 lines that had intercepted, drifting further and further apart.. how many people here would continue to play a part in my life journey, how many would classify me as a history of their lifes? i guess none of us are sure at this moment...

i sincerely hope that some day down the years, our paths can meet again.. somehow, somewhere...


everlasting friendship at 4:57 PM
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Thursday, January 13, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

the tsunami food fare is over a while a ago.. im so tired now.. i had been standing almost throughout the whole event and my legs are aching now.. quite a lot of celebs are invited to our school such as priscillia chan, alan tern, ronald susilo and julian hee... got to take a picture with him...

however, after todae many things will be over... such as my first stop over.... althought im not really attach to this place, i am also not too keen in going over to ELDC.. i suddenly realise for some things, trying hard is not enough.. u need a bit of fate and luck to help... sometimes one man show is simply too tired for someone to take it... i really need lots of rest... im really veri veri tired but still need to wait till 6pm...


everlasting friendship at 4:29 PM
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

can anyone tell me what can i do when im facing ppl who jus simply care for themselves?? tmr is the fund raising food fare for the tsunami victims... but no one is putting in effort to help!!!! cant they just spare a little empathy for the people whom need our help out there????? so many people are homeless and starving out there and people like us are not helping just simply because we are BUSY???? so many other people whom are busier than us can spare their time to help in those countries and all we have to do is to sell some coupons for the food!!!! how much time can that take??? time is something that we ourselves can control.. spare me your craps, guys... i had enough... this world is really damm ugly... with ugly hearts and ugly people... i wonder those people whom dont bother to help can sleep tight at night... don't they see the faces of the victims haunting them in their dreams??? can they really sleep tight and sound??

guys, u really cannot blame people for not helping you in times of need because you guys don't deserve to be help.... you deserve to stand there facing the storm yourself because that is what you are doing to others whom need your help now... helping is not all about giving money unless you are like giving a FEW HUNDRED THOUSOUNDS.. helping is something that comes straight from the heart, when you are willing to got the extra mile, stretching out your hands to people whom really need a helping hand....


everlasting friendship at 11:17 AM
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Monday, January 10, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

this is the last week of the my first stopover.. still remember the first few weeks complaining that time passes too slowly... now is the last week le... next week going to a brand new stopover.. mayb as i grow up i began to put no hard feelings in accepting new people or letting go old people.. simply feel that life still goes on regardless who are the people around me.. friends would remain as friends even if we no longer meet as frequent...

at last i got to go to the beach on saturday.. although there are passing rain now and then, i still enjoyed myself... met lian ming at habour front interchange when queuing for the bus.. singapore is so small... i did not really play much that day... jus sat down with friends talking and looking at other people.... saw lots of youngsters playing around... reminiscences of secondary days flew back to my mind.. i missed my secondary school friends... but it seems a bit impossible to get them back in life again..

can anyone bring me a miracle in life?


everlasting friendship at 9:48 AM
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Friday, January 07, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

sometimes in life we are forced onto something we don't really like. i got my 2nd stop over le.. it is ELDC. i put it as my first choice as i had no preference in the beginning. But after i found mine, i wasn't given a 2nd chance. how often, people made their choices and regretted it afterwards? how many things in life are we given a 2nd chance? i made my choice, i regretted it. can i tell myself not to repeat this mistake all over again in future? or will i continue to choose things that would lead to irreversible regrets later in life?

At times, i may be given the best choices in life in others' eyes. it may sounds stupid for me to settle something that seems to be of inferiority, but who cares? i just wanna follow my heart. no matter how ugly or hard things may get in future, this is my choice.. sometimes all we need is a little more hope that keeps us going, even if we know it is disappointment in the end. so what if everyone thinks i am stupid to do that, i took my stand, and i will live with it. i believe there will still be people supporting me, cos they believe i will be able to withstand anything that comes along the way. i just wanna go with my heart.. i want regrets no more....

life is a game of choice, choose to win....


everlasting friendship at 9:24 AM
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

.x Friends foreva; enemies never x.

i simply dont understand what young gers are thinking now... how do they see love as? something where substitution can come into place?? i just dont understand... why must they rush into another relationship when the previous one did not have a good start or end? ppl not around me are liddat, ppl around me are oso liddat... what is the world turning into? do love really hurt that much? must they find a substitute so quickly after they are hurt?? furthermore, shouldnt they at least find one that is of better aspects rather than settling down on one that everyone knows it is impossible.. hurting herself in the end seems a bit stupid to do it this way. mayb it may seems a bit bad to conclude that their bonds will not last, but i admit i see it this way.

take care, my dear friend, this is all i can say.. i have no say in your life, i cant do anything to help you find your way, cos i have not found mine yet.. maybe one day, when our paths cross again, you would say you are living good and i am wrong to say. however, sometimes some things you can only learn to accept the hard fate the hard way...



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