Things are moving slower these two days bcos my sup is on leave. I began to do a lot of thinking, especially after reading su teng’s blog. I began to wonder, what kinda relationship can last forever? Friendship? Partnership? Family ties? I dun really know and I have my doubts. My head is spinning now. I cant think clearly. I am lost. Something happened on Sunday… something that I dun wanna talk about it… Friends are pillars of strength.. What an ideal philosophy.. But I have my doubts now. How many friends have I lost? How many have I made? I found that the number does not tally. I am feelingmore alone as each day passes. I began to have doubts about friendship. Who are the ones that really cares? I can list them out with five fingers, or even lesser. Who are those whom bother to take a look at my everyday life? How many will reply and care… Sometimes I began to wonder should I end this blogging thingy. Why should I bother to update when no one is reading? Why should I carry on when no one give a damm… If one day I were to leave forever, will anyone realize that I am gone… Live my own dreams? how can i live when i dun even know my dreams....
