i just finish my last paper n i came down to the lab cos i forgot to bring kep this morning and mum is not at home at the moment... cant find any friends cos most of them are still in school at this time..
i cant really sleep last nite for no reasons.. i keep having the same words flashing thru my mind.. i remembered very clearly that Crystal called bcos of relationship problems.. she asked me, what i think about love, in the sense of partnering that causes mi to stay single from birth till now.... well, i couldnt really answer at that point of time... Am i really like all other people said, that i was looking for the perfect person of my life, or am i just to afraid to lose my freedom..
these words are hard to tell someone so i choose to write... maybe i have read thousands of romance story to understand the meaning of love, but do i really do? i doubt.. cos all i was looking for whenever i am reading is the personal world n time where my imagination can soar and wonder.. a world i don't have to care much and think much... where i can smile and cry when my heart tells me to.. i find that as i am growing up, it makes it harder for me to reveal my true self to others.. it seems like a chore to me...
love to me is something too much to take.. i am not ready to lose all i have for now... people tell mi that love does not mean giving up what i have.. but those are only words... i dun really see that in real life.. all i see was the pain and sorrows that they are suffering..... so.... why should i put myself in that kind of circumstances??
