I heard from mum that there is a family gathering coming up, Edward’s birthday. Well, I must say this had an impact on me, more or less. It had been a long long time since the family met up. The last time was on the first day of lunar New Year. Throughout these months I thought I had learnt to let go and put everything behind me. But I guess I have not done enough, if not, I will not be distracted these days after I learnt that there is a gathering soon. I hate to say this, but I really don’t feel like attending. I hate to see the distance between us; I hate to see others caring more for me than he does.
Someone told me that relationship changes over time because of mentality. We have to learn to let go when the time comes. However, how can I not feel the pain when the bonds between us are craved within me all these years? I always thought things would stay the same, I never knew things would change. If growing up has such a high price to pay, then I rather stay as the little girl I use to be. Things looked contradicting. The one, who used to be close, is drifting further away from me. The one, whom doesn’t really care, starts to care. I really have no idea what is going. All I know is I don’t wanna see any of them. I just wanna lead this peaceful life that I have got used to without him…
